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“Insisting on living in your past will kill your future. Let it go.” Tony Evans

It’s like … I LITERALLY have 27 “draft” posts that I’ve started and never finished.
It’s like I have A.D.D. and can’t complete a thought to save my life.
It’s like ….

Wait.
What ????
Yeah.

I’m at that point where I’ve had SO many things happen … and SO much I need to catch you guys up on … that I’m just gonna give up and “start over.” Hopefully I’ll go back and fill in the gaps. But if I don’t … here is where we start. Right here. All fresh and new.

TRUTH TIME.

Warning: Boys! Run away! Plenty of female related issues to discuss. Close eyes, turn around … get out while you still can!!!!!!

Lately, I just haven’t been feeling too well.
Really, for most of this past year I’ve had more health complaints than I ever have in my life.
Nothing too serious mind you … started off with just a few things, but the list kept getting longer and longer.

Anxiety and panic attacks.
Mood swings at the drop of a hat.
Tears for no reason.
Bloating.
My hair was falling out.
MASSIVE sugar/carb cravings.
Crazy periods. Not regular at all.
Like I’d go 4 months with nothing … and then 60 days constantly. (FUN!) ((NOT!!))
My sex drive was plummeting (Husband NOT happy about this one lol!)
Rapid and irregular heartbeats.
Insomnia.
Extreme fatigue.
My boobs HURT!
Super dry skin everywhere but my face where it was SUPER EXTREMELY OILY!
Regular frequent headaches.
Ohh and … I’ve gained 30 pounds for no apparent reason.

I put off going to the Doctor mostly because they are SO quick to whip out that prescription pad and write you up for a bazillion doses of Xanex and Prozac and send you on your way.

Ohh, you’re feeling anxiety ??? and crying ??? and just feel like something is WRONG ???
Let me numb that for ya.
No really.
Take ALL of these pills and I promise that you’ll straight up forget everything that was wrong.
Ohh and that’ll be $500 please.
I just didn’t want to go back down that road. PLUS the fact that the last (and only) time I was on Antidepressants (for many of the same symptoms I’m having now … but more on that later) I gained 20 pounds.
Part of my problem is the weight gain.
I don’t need (or want) 20 more pounds. I’ll just deal with my ‘crazy’ on my own thankyouverymuch.

THEN I started having night sweats. Like, I’ve always heard about women having them and they sounded like an inconvenience and everything … but I never really THOUGHT about it. I didn’t think they were a big deal.

I WAS WRONG!

They suck. Times a million.

THEN I started having the hot flashes during the day. THOSE are even worse than night sweats and I seriously thought that NOTHING could be worse. AGAIN … I WAS WRONG!

So long story short … I went to the Doctor … had a ba-zillion tests done and was diagnosed.

I have PCOS.
I’m pre-Diabetic.
And my hormone levels … are CRAZY:

Normal Estrogen is 1.3-3.3
Mine is 6.0

Normal Progesterone is 75-270
Mine is 21

The normal balance of female hormones is 100-500
Mine is 4

Normal DHEAS (Male hormone that females have) is 2-23
Mine is 27.5

Normal stress hormones (your fight or flight hormone that shouldn’t kick in unless
something BIG is happening)

Morning 3.7-9.5
Mine 13.7

Noon 1.2-3.0
Mine 10.4

Evening 0.6-1.9
Mine 12.5

Night 0.4-1.0
Mine 4.4

I hate being “sick” … but honestly, it feels SO good to at least know what is going on with me. Give it a name. Give me a plan. Give me SOMETHING I can do to make it better. My fabulous Doctor has me on meds (another post on that tomorrow), which I’ve been on for 6 weeks or so now. I’ll detail out the good and the bad in tomorrows post.

But for now, since this post is getting long, let me show you what I went and did for the month of October.

I done dyed my hair pink !!!!!!

Cool huh. Whatcha think ?!?!